this is so happening......

finally..... my final started.... i was having english test today... hmmm.... easy? yes.... moderate? yea... tough??? oh damn!! this is the answer...... well... hopefully i can score... but i dont expect much.... scare... whn i five my hopes up i will b watching them fall too.... cant wait to reach 18nov..... i wanna go home..... T.T but.... aft i go home..... i got noway to go..... im so depressed now not because of final.... haihzz... dunno wat happen.... william lai wai lam!!! wat u want actually?????? cant u juz change the way u talk to me??? i think i call u too much or u calling me too much le..... talk oso cannot talk properly!!! like dead person!!! i hate it u noe????? im ur gf!!! u r on the phone like u r talking v ur ..... nobody!!!! argh!!! i cant stand 4 it u noe??????? somehow i wish to noe dat how much i left in u.... u r no more like last time..... u dont appreciate me like last time...... i juz hate it...... i really pissed till wanna break up but at the same time i felt hurt!!! u noe?????? u never treat me like im ur gf..... im nothg to u u noe??????? i hate u!!!!! i dont wanna suffer!!! i noe i cant find any1 better thn u...... i rather b single 4eva!!! u make me scare.... im afraid of someday i will still fight n argue v u..... the way u treat me!!! think back n look!!! how nice other bfs treat their gfs..... wat bout me????????????? y everythg is so unfair to me????? it's so hard to describe my feelings now...... im sad.... dats it...... leave me alone...... argh!!!!!!!!!!

DaMn NeW hAiRstYLe....

before


after

hmm... unbelievable i already in sabah n still surviving bout 4 months.... i really spent alot here ppl.... T.T i juz got my ptptn.... i dunno where i use but 4 now... i can tell... last week only i got the money, this week i left only left 3.1k... everythg out of sudden.. suddenly my hair gel finished... suddenly sushi king got promosion, SUDDENLY i lose 400 bucks.. 200bucks 4 my bloody hair... another half... hmm... sushi king, starbucks, logitech mouse (dirty ad)... sobsob.. T.T, contactlens, toner,cottonbutts, mascara..... n so on... dats how my money gone..... it juz went away without telling me bye bye... oh yea..... 4got to tell ppl here..... i straighten my hair... dont get shocked whn see me... im still the Wendy u all used to noe..... hehe... although im not so satisfy v it.. but..... haihzzz... juz accept la... i prefer my curly hair actually.. T.T but i cant hav it coz it's too hard to handle.. now.... hmm... i dont need to comb my hair thn straight away can go to class le... i found dat life so misserable... i dunno wat im studying.... T.T cant even c wats my future... exciting to some of the ppl but not me.... mayb to ah bing la.. but ah bing dont wanna forgive me.... coz b4 dat she ask me not to straighten my hair... thn now she need 2 years to consider wanna 4give me anot... T.T haha.. i will miss her... she might not b together v me in UMS started nxt sem on... so unhappy.... another friend leaving.... but now.... i met another good guy.... chekahyuen is his nick name.... he is really a nice guy... help me alot whn i need...
well.... going to take my final soon... everyday mumbling myself to study but EVERYTIME failed.... help me god!!! im vy hopeless eeehhh.. T.T vy stressful again... WENDY bcoming EMO......

recently.....

i guess i didnt do well 4 my mid term.. T.T i screw kinda lot of subjects.... u noe??? i feel like im doing my uni 4 my parents sack~~T.T i dont really like to study.. but i noe i hav to.... i dont want other ppl look me down....
these days, i keep on thinking bout wat hilwa fired my ass... the more i think.. the more piss im..... really hate her la... n i m wondering how my ex collegues nowadays juz to face her a few hours during workin hours... hahaha... thank god i quit peacefully although i had too much of shit there... well.. who cares? im not going back n work there ad..... no more backward glance... im facing forward..... not like somebody.. thinks dat she is somebody... kaaa ppuuiii!!!!
to my friends who long time never keep in touch n never c me... im fine over here....... half dead only..... lol...... busy v assignments n exams these few weeks.... at the same time..... my brain is reflecting the days whn i was in primary, secondary n my lovely sch time in st paul.... i miss my friends!! T.T im wondering how they are now..... realising all my friends leaving one by one... im scare..... i need all my friends back.... i want renu... she is going to england... i miss my cousin evie..... she is going to uk too........ qiu yi which is in malacca... dunno whether she will further her studies in other country anot..... chia chi went to india... but im so so a normal friend 4 her.... T.T sweetheart~?? haihzz... too long never keep in touch v her.... i feel like..... 'why m i here?' m i suppose to b together v my friends? escaping coming to ums?? i suppose to b in seremban!!! v my friends~~~ happily ever after.... T.T y?? y m i now so far away fr them?? away fr my hometown??? friends.... i might not b together v u all all the time.... but deeply in my heart.... i do concern bout u all...... i care~~!!!! this is for true..... i swear......!!!!

Life In Uni...

oooowww... this is so horrible... never tot dat i get the offer to ums....
well... 1st day in ums... ppl fr outside.. they definately think of ums is the best uni in malaysia... this uni is so huge... but it never impress me anyway... bcoz dat time i was dealing with the feelings of lonely.. insecure without my family... n my darling... haihzzz.... i really dont feel like studying.. still... im here 4 the 10th day in uni life... i tot i will b staying in the hostel in sch... nah... got shifted... now in indah permai... so damn far fr the sch compound.... aiks... no transports, no internet, no entertainment all these days.. only shopping, sleeping, eating, n talking v my friends...

hehe... guess wat?? there is sthg i never expect my dad will do... he acc to sabah thn the nxt day follow me to uni like last time whn i was still a primary kid... b4 he back home.. he giv me a kis... n dat was so touched.... i merely cry.... i miss home.... i miss my parents... T.T my friends over there.... of coz my hubby too... T.T save me fr uni!!!!! T.T

oh yea.. here.. i noe a few friends... sasha, alice, sie yi, yu ling, choy sin, rong ci, n of coz a few seniors like wei kiat, joseph, jason, steve... they are all nice nice ppl helping me all these while... feel much more comfort v all them around.... n i saw a few seremban friens.... hahaha...

im going everywhere by bus... to class, library, shopping mall, back to my hostel.... aiks.. so boring over here... i really need some1 like william 24 hours v me ler... T.T dear... i miss u... hmmm... plus.. i heard those seniors said sabah isnt dat safe.. alot of cases happen nearby uni....

kk... till now.. need to chiao le...

miss redang...

a sad news here.. i called the hr department (MAS)... haihzzz.... couldnt get the job... coz all the newbies gone through all the stages ad.. im waiting 4 the other company to layan me... T.T getting much much boring in starbucks aft i get back fr redang.. although it's been a week plus... but all the detik detik gembira still running on my mind.. how i wish i can stay there.. with all those stary stary nite.... i can barely make a few more wishes thn... kekeke.... boring ar!!! starbucks bodoh!!!! hafiz bodoh!!!!! tahi betul mrk org.... i dont wish to continue my job anymore la.. i go redang n work.. bleh!!!! hehe.. mane boleh... my parents will never allow me to work far away fr them.... they asked me to bcome teacher again today aftnoon... make me feel so damn down.. y dont they und me???? i hate to talk to kids.. i dont wanna b a teacher!!!! u noe????? i hate kids touching me v their saliva... n speak to me so kiddy n ask those kind of stupid questions.....!!!! juz get lost fr my sight la... bengong betul..... i wanna become a stewardess!!! lord.. help me!!!! i need u.... T.T was really down aft knowing i cant join MAS.... gotta wait till the nxt intake.... n nobody noe whn is it...... damn damn damn!!! i should make up my mind earlier... derrr...... REDANG~~~~ i will visit u somewhere in july or mayb nxt year!!!! i wanna come into u!!!!! hohohohoho..... love redang.... miss redang..... aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

CABIN CREW~

oh well.. i juz came back fr the store meeting..... i can feel like the prob they were discussing is bout me... n some other partners oso la... hmm... i terasa abit laa..... tired now... cant even open my eyes n concentrate in writting a blog here....

dunno y come im so naughty nowadays aft came back fr redang.. miss my bf too much till i keep on hugging him n kissing him.... hehe... dumb....

yea yea.... the new dm really causing everybody in deep shit.... i und... work is work.. i shall pay more attention... dont wanna b the next they wanted to sack.... wendy!!!!! alert!!!!! i remind myself all the time... everyday.... whenever im on duty.... i really did..... haihzz.... yet im still a day dreamer.... dont wanna kena ad... y me?? y always me??? T,T sick of it la....

i've decided.... im going to join cabin crew... experience my life till the max b4 i got any commitment.... asked william suggestion... sounds dat he will be supporting me.... but once i get into this career... i reach the point of no return... no degree... juz stpm... everystep i go muz b vyvyvy careful... hopefully i can easily get the job... wendy!!!! b confident!!! u can do it!!!!!! huh~~~~~!!!!!

time to oioi luu... nitez...

aawww.. juz back fr redang.. n i really have no time to write anythg here... tired....

tell u sthg!! redang is a wonderful island... man.. i really hope dat i can stay there 4eva.. i love the view over there.. i like sea.. i like wave.. i like fish.. i love jungle...!!!

hmm.. gotta write out wat i was doing whn im having my lovely holiday...






1st day..

erm.. bout 9pm i reach t2... n we r ready to go redang... luckily zhenyi sempat to send me the bikini... he give it to me as my birthday present... how sweet is he.... T.T so touching...
in the bus... i really dont sleep much... hate to travel by bus.....

2nd day..

5am... we reach kuala terengganu... aiks... too early ad... guess wat??? we went to the mcD.. sat there n waiting the time pass... oooohhh!!!! dats freaking boring..... thn later on.. we walked to the jetty... n waited there again.... till 10am, prof chan came... following by the other volunteers... finally at 10.30am, we tooke ferry to laguna resort.. pulau redang.... immediately we took the boat provided fr si penyu.... my 1st time on the boat... dats freaking syok!!!! love it man....
i tot my nitemere started... well... not so terrible as wat i tot.... although there were kinda boring n alot of creepy little insects.... hmmm.. i've got my way to solve it... hehe... n there i noe kak nurul, abang mann, fifi, n adi..... they are all nice nice fella n treat us vyvy good... we can simply talk nonsense n make ppl laugh..... the 1st nite... i was kinda scare... gotta walk to the beach n wait 4 the turtles to do their nesting... n yea!! there was 1 at last.... it's a green turtle... vy huge!!! enjoyed the process she layed her eggs n all.. poh yee, peak yin, joseph, julia they all took pic v the turtle... they kiss n sayang the turtle... well.. the best part is.... whn jen wei asked a question... here it goes: "nak tanya penyu ini jantan ke betina?" hmmmm.. wat do u think?? dumb dumb jen wei...... hmmm.. i was kinda sad 4 my 1st day... i miss my honey... merely cried...

3rd day..

well.... we go snorkeling.... round island.... hehehe.... the 1st two places was nicer... but not the 3rd place.. i got bite fr 'sibuk'.. im not sure wats dat... making my whole body itchy... n so i up to the boat immediately... a few of them kena oso.. well... some of them didnt bother....

day 4...

early in the morning... jenwei, chu, navin, n kartig went to long beach.. others all went 4 snorkeling.. but me... i wear my bikini n sun bathe.. wakaka.... hmmm.... dat day, the sea was super clear... i love dat whether.... lepak on the beach kinda long... later on.. we went 4 river hiking... damn.... i sweat like hell.... excercises alot... climb up to the hill thn back to status quo.... but the nice thg is.... i get to jump into the prawn spa aft hiking... it's nearby a small waterfall... the tiny prawns n fishes will come to us in the water n help us to suck all our dead cell n dead skin... we enjoyed... hehe.... at nite... actually fr 7pm to 11pm is dark... n we can see alot of stars.... we slept on the map... admiring stars at nite while waiting the turtles.... n i remembered of starry starry nite... it's vy beautiful.. i saw there were alot of shooting stars.... but i never make a wish... coz they were too fast... i love stars... guess wat??? ruhui doesnt like too much of stars... n the 1st time i heard ppl said stars are geli....???? lol... is it??? nah.. not 4 me... i love them....

day 5..
hmm... it's not a good day today... raining the whole day.. we planned to go 4 turtle rock... bt nah!!! the wheather dont allow us to do so.. wasted a day...


day 6...
my turn to long beach... n wow.. there were so so so so beautiful... awsome!!!!! never eva get to see such a beautiful beach.... ennn!!!! redang.. i fall in love v u!!!! bought alot of suveniours.... bout 100 bucks there... well.... wat to do?? must spend abit 1 ma... lol..... so... hmm... oh yeA.... the purpose we go to long beach is to collect 1 million of signatures... juz to make ppl swear dat they dont take turtle eggs again 4 the rest of their lives.... n oso 4 government to band local who selling those eggs... hopefully it works someday.... later on... we go 4 turtle rock!!! well... this activity oso make me sweat!! really hot n phew... those ways to top of the hill is kinda slippery... not a prob 4 me to up to the hill but back dat time... i fell down bout 4 times... the 1st time was the most teruk 1.... hit my butt..... n ah guan oso fell down 4 the sack of saving me.. thank u guan... all because of my converse shoes... too old ad... but... it's worth it i will say.... i can see dolphins... hawsbill turtle n green turtle in the ocean.. wow... n those views were so nice....

day 7...
ahha... supposely... im not suppose to go long beach... tapi i ikut juga!!! hehe.. got the workers permission... n i go there again.... this time not v ah guan le... i go v py,py,julia n joseph... ohh... we were so crazy... keep on taking the jumping shot while collecting signatures... got alot of nice nice pic in joseph's camera... n i want them!!!!!! will post here n let u guys admire.. kekeke.... the nite.. we dont really sleep much... i learn to play carom.... played v ah guan.... till 3am...

last day... whn i woke up... ppl frigthen me..... they said i dream walking.... n i believed... awww.... stupid.. they were fooling me..... i knew it whn i reach kt.. aik aik aik... later on whn we back to kt... we took our lunch in pasar... nothg there other thn hot n smelly... carrying a 11kg bag... damn... it's so so so tiring... while we wait the time passes... as we were taking flight at 9pm... we singgah in ruhui n kuan yew's hotel... n we had dinner together... they r lovely couples.... hmmm... time 4 us to back... n the 1st time i take flight... dat was scary whn the plane is balancing.... i hold my bag tight n another hand on the handle.. yet.. ah guan... a nice nice friend, he try to calm me down... he asked me to hold his hand if i really want to... i juz did... my hands r cold.. not bcoz of the flight's air cond.. but my fearfulness... wow... was wonderin how could i bcome a cabin crew if i got phobia in it... nonono!!! i muz control myself!!! yay!! finally... i get to c my boy... ah!!! miss you my dear!!!!

i wanted to thank ah guan actually... while admiring the starry starry nite ah guan share v me his stories.. all the love love stories n his feelings.... his opinions bout everythg.. thanks 4 sharing ah guan... im not 8... juz wanna concern bout ppl round me...... haha... ah guan... if u r not bside me.... i think i will b more scare n unsecure..... but it's u who make thgs calm... like to chill out v u again if there's a chance... n if it's not u.. i will miss this trip... i gain alot of knowledges seriously... thank u!!!!! i will remember u 4 eva..... a nice friend!!!! take care budy!!!!!
n now.. im back to status quo... doing meaningless job as a stupid barista... how i wish i can back t my slot B (bengong) group n being bodoh all the rest of my life... but too bad... me now back to reality...... im tired... i need to rest.... mentally..... i really need... i wanna back to the worriless redang life... talking nonsense v abang mann,fifi, n adi..... ahhh!!!!! i really miss them... n yes!!!! i miss my bengong group as well.. without them.... the trip wont b as fun as it is~~~ miss u guys!!!!!!

hApPy BiRthDaY tO mUa...

1st of all... i wanna say... THANK YOU!!! TO ALL MY FRIENDS DAT REMEMBER MY BIRTHDAY... hehe.... madeline, jon, muaz, qiu yi, hui yi, beng hui, jeffrey, sook ee, my sweetheart wenli (which i tot she forgotten),luan loo, paul, karthik, jason, jonathan mok, chu en(which i never aspect he knew and remember my birthday),de hui gogo(pink pig), ah mei, ah di, and alot more.... thank u!!!!! ur wishes n blesses i do appreciated!!!! muacks!!!! love u guys....

well.... another day here aft my birthday.. was waited my birthday cake done fr my hubby till i fallen asleep... hehe... jason is rite... he is a loving bf... he is caring, makes me feel so secured... n those are the reasons i choose him to b my bf... i noe alot of ppl talkin bout me somehow.. i dont giv a damn... so wat??? he is my love 1..... although he is not rich where sometimes i wanted sthg, he couldnt get me dat immediately.. but.. i do hav had the heart to give me everythg i want.... takes time......

hey ppl... u noe sthg????? i found out a secret!! if u ever c stars at nite... u can make a wish... deep in ur heart of wat u want!!! they can read u!!!! n they listen to wats my whispers.... i've got 3 types of different cakes 4 my 20th birthday where i tot i wont get any.... hehe.... well... this i muz thank to jon 1st of all... he bought me a cake fr secret recipe... yogurt chesse cake.... thanks alot!!!! i appreciated it!!!! never aspect dat he will do sthg so sweet... n jon!!!! he is a cute guy.. lol.. secondly... my bro bought me a fruitcake... hmm... v his gf.... i shouldnt have blame him getting into a relationship at this age.. n his gf is actually a nice gal.. seems like my granny likes her alot... not bad.... thanks bro!!! n my hubby!!!! he do me a yogurt chesse cake as well... not to say not nice... i would say it's unique... hehe... kinda..... ok.... lol... dont worry my dear.... at least u did sthg which i can see in my eyes... i noe dat u r vyvyvy good to me.... u did wateva u promised.... n i love all of ur gifts..... at 1st i tot u were so not cool givin me a notebook cool pad... it's like.... not romantic at all.. n at last... u gave me another cute n lovely pressie.... i love dat!!! thank u!!! my sis... she bought me a porch... hehe... i got the msg my dear sis... u love me!!! hehe... n i appreciate u as well.... my dad brought us to hav our dinner in pizza hut... hope he didnt spend too much 4 it.... thank u daddy... thank u mummy!!!! yaya... granny gave me an ang pau... hehe.... im kinda happy to get dat but at the same time i felt sad... coz i noe my granny used alot of money this few days coz of her sick..... luckily she's ok rite now... granny.. no matter how.. i still love u~~

ReDaNG!!!!! Im cOmINg To yOu!!!!!

wont b touching my pc 4 a long whole week... aih... cant share v u ppl how i enjoy over there....
im going to redang this sunday... wow...!!!! waited 4 so long n finally....
everythg is perfect!!!! juz lack of bikini~~~.... hell... i wanted it so badly....... T.T i wish i could juz got 1 4 my birthday present.... mayb there's ppl who say im going to show off.... or to tempt some1... but nah~~~ i wanna b like mat salleh... i want myself tan... hehe..... other thn looked sexy in dat...
seremban.. wat a small town v small shopping complex... i couldnt find 1.... taheee....!!!!

thank u my sis!!!! she bought me a porch which i needed it so much during the trip (as a birthday present).... hehe.... i will appreciate it... dats out of my mind jessica~~~ thank u.... n i feel myself a helpless sis which never buy u any present on ur birthday.. but jie jie promise u... here indeed... i will buy u 1 this year!!!! hehe...

I WANT A BIKINI!!!!!!!!!!! T.T

WheN yOu wISh uPOn Th3 StArs.....

ppl who really know who is WENDY LIM WEN YI... they do know i like stars.... it's quite long i din enjoy my nite scene.... midnite stars... till 2am... dats the best time looking at the sky.. it's so so so dark... n thats the brightest shine 4 d stars... so amaze.... aft dat... close of my waterish eyes n make a wish..... i miss the nite whn me n my senior chew vee kuan spent our precious time chatting n enjoying the view under starry starry nite..... refreshing back... there's quite some time i din see him...

NAH~~ DATS NOT THE POINT... (LOL)

the thg is... THE WISHES.....

whn the nite i fetched eric back.. i cried n i was all alone in the lake garden.. i whisper to the stars... i was so hurt.... thn i wish.... i want all these out of my head n continue my life!!! i want somebody else who really care bout me.... not the foolish selfish eric..... i dont need him...
well... i do forget bout him... it takes time..... n now.. my wish do come true....
im getting older.. coming soon.... if the stars do make my dreams come true.... i hope i get a better life n solve all my probs.... stop me fr the complicated decision dat i have to make.... guide me wat should i do... wat i should b..... i never blow a cake 4 my own birthday 4 years.. hmm.. to ppl.. cake wasnt the matter... the main is presents.. i dont feel like i'd celebrate my birthday without a cake.... although i dont eat much... my past time's birthdays wasnt dat enjoy though... at least wenli n qiuyi did spent their time chatting v me.. other thn dat... hmmm....
or mayb dat time my relationships v all my friends sucks.... they lost trust in me bcoz of the bitch... n i really hate the bitch!!! oh well... luckily i didnt c her in town all these while... or she'll seriously make me puke.....
talking bout friends.... chia chi went to india to further her studies... i hope she can get use to her life over there... she says she missed all the time we've been through last time..... which is long long time ago.... actually i missed them too.... juz dat i dont think they accepting me..... im not sensitive... i cried so many times bcoz of these friendships.... but wat for....???? they dont trust me..... 6 years friendship isnt short.... i dont noe if there's any changes in me... all these while im stuborn.... i noe myself...... i dont give a damn... but 4 friends.... true friends.... i'd help... i'd sacrifies... i always listen to them.. givin opinions..... i dnt noe wat the single fucking bloody thg broke our friendships.... the time n the distance????
u gals said i changed..... im not the real me.... could u juz tell me wat the fucking changes dat make u ppl feel so uncomfortable???? i feel so shit u noe???? cc n se.....!!! u noe???????? i miss both of u.... pls..... forgive me if i make u gals feel so sick of me...

starry starry nite..... how i wish i was u... unchangable.. unspeechable... silently, peacefully fulfilling the wishes... silently, peacefully curring inner hurts... silently peacefully...

sToP 4 a while.....

i've ad got a nice bf which always argue v me..... i hate dat... n i really feel annoyed..... but now... i really wish i m single..... at least i wont do sthg sorry to him.... im not ordinary at all.... im not simple.. im so much like a devil.. a bad bad gurl... aft i be v him.. im not who im... i bcome someone dat always depending on him..... who m i who used to b??? im daring... independent!!!! im strong.... no tearing more thn 2 times a year!!! i really feel like give up my life now.... im 20.. n i own nothg..... nothg..... william.... will you 4give me if i say i dont wanna continue this relationship???? will you??? im tired.... i noe u do.... u r tired too... dont carry the burden on ur shoulders... it's heavy.... n depressed.... i dont need a man..... i enjoy the life dat i can flirt around... play around... like a freely bird.... dats wat i was.... i miss my life.... im tired of being blame n looking at ur colour to b who im... i wanted to break up.... but sthg holding me... im not cruel.... but i love u.... can some1 help me???? my life is so complicated... n messy.... im hopeless....

life

working at starbucks... i really learn bout life.... it's actually kinda tough.... i've got scolding.. i cried.... im so in bad luck.. ouch~~~
somehow... i felt like i dont wanna stay in this bloody world... im feeling empty... floating.. haihzzz..
well... me n my ss relationship back to status quo 'though'... hope it'll remain....
din noe y come i always back to my past.. bout d guys around me last time... i was so free... floated in the romance environment..... danced in the middle of the circle... spinning... flirting...... LOL.... didnt worry bout money.... coz wat i wanted... ppl will buy it 4 me... dats life....... n now..... hahaha... doesnt seem like wat i've got......

now... i've got william by my side... hopefully i din choose the wrong guy... he love me..... n i noe..... im so selfish n greedy till i wanted more..... hmmm.... more....

其实还爱你

我讨厌阴天的风
冷得那么刺痛
只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落
被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你找到离开的理由
每一夜闭上眼睛
我看到了恶梦
你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝
直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱
也不想爱得懦弱
其实我非常爱你不想失去你
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻
虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你
-lyrics fr P.I.R-


dont noe whether the 1 i used to love wil hav any responds listening v this song..
i dreamed of eric last nite.... he grab me back fr william.... im wondering if dats in reality.... who i will choose... coz in the dream... eric do really giv me a view of he do appreciate me... trying hard to find me.. bought me a jewery and asked me to marry him.... argh! nonsense... dat wouldnt b him....
my darling william.... im lost.... u do love me n yes i noe.... it seems like every1 wont appreciate wateva they have had until they lost them..... T.T i love u.... i hope this scene wont appear in my life.... i dont wanna make any decision... all are confusing me.... confusing u....

SS hates me i hate SS

aaww.. it's been a while i never update bout myself over here.. ah nah!! aft exam busy nie ya~!!!

went to kl v my bf... n we really enjoyed....

currently... im working as a barista in starbucks jusco... so far.... masih boleh tahan la..... i like the environment over there... gonna really use to v ppl there n oso my duties.. T.T till now... certain thgs i still kinda weak n slow to catch up.... m i stupid?....

somehow.... i wish i doesnt noe my ss b4... at least i wont feel so sad whn he being so strict to me.. it makes me feel so awkward.... i really try my best to treat him good n speechlessly.... he didnt.... so cruel... long story... n actually.. dat ss is a guy dat i used to fall in love v him.... hopelessly... he do hav a gf v him... n aft he knew dat i like him.... he dump me aside.... trying to use all the excuses dat he had to avoid seeing me.... n aft a while... whn i ad got my bf which is now my ex.... he came to me n wanted to b v me... i tot of accepting him dat time but whn i refreshed the dark side of him... i really wanted to cry out loud.... it's the same... he wont appreciate me.... he also will dump me one day as i noe dat dat time he juz broke up v her gal.... he is juz using me... it's a replacement... i hate this.... he want me not bcoz of he really love me.... n so.. dat time i never giv an answer...

till thn.... i got my bf... living happily together.... v william... i feel d saftiness.. so comfy.. n at least i dont need to ask myself whether he love me anot.... coz i already knew.... he does!! he loves me... everythg i want he'll give me... although sometimes he cant afford to... but he tried his best to give me everythg i want... dats the guy i wanted n waited so long ago... n i noe not every1 is perfect.. my bf isnt rich enough... isnt good in his edu n stuff.. younger thn me n all..... aih!!! juz a lil bit... a lil bit.... ehmm ehmm... i shall thank god 4 dat though....

SS!!!!! i hate u~~~!!!! y r u purposely giving me stress n purposely make me down thn whn u see me down u come n cheer me up!!! n y whn im really in the mood n u screw my mood?? to you... im really disappointed... i ad tried my best to make ur day... n i scare u isnt really happy whn u noe im good v my bf... i really scare of u... im sorry... although somehow i does miss holding ur hand together n lepak the whole jusco... T.T
this i need to say sorry to my boy... but honestly... aft i met him... i really tot of those days... mayb it's juz a part of my memories.... dont worry william.. i will still love u....

aawww... hope dat he can treat me like a friend.. a better friend... i dont mean to b pissed n sad... merely cry juz now.... n i keep consoled myself dat i dont really und ur stand as a ss.... but... could u plz also dont hurt my feeling??? n talk to me aft i did sthg dat u dont really wanna c??? im a gal..... not u..... it's not funny 4 me... not at all playing me a fool over there.... i noe u take everythg serious... but so do i...... i juz smile n calm myself whnever talk seriously n want me to b serious... im trying to calm my stress.. i dont want u to think dat im playing around... im not u..... u looked serious but i din like dat.... argh!!!!